Friday, November 9, 2007
Reasons behind the tears
Dear all...
Are you all curious about what happened today? I cant believe that i actually teared in front of all of you.. Mrs Ariel did warn me before that i should not cry/tear in front of pupils, but i told her.. " How can you endure the feeling?".....
Reasons of why i teared...
1. I am truely proud that most of you improved throughout the year, some of you had really done me proud. Your success is also my success.. I am so touched when you thanked me regarding how much you have improved. I love those words, "You made me improve".. I love it..
2. I am really happy and touched that most of you love me to be the form teacher next year.. Saying that i taught well, saying that i must be the teacher, saying that if i am not teaching u, u will change school, etc... i am really really emotionally touched..
3. I really cannot be sure that i am going to be with all of you next year, the main reason i teared is that i really cannot bear to leave all of you.. The chances of you having another teacher is high.. Very high.. Which means, the chances of me leaving is very high too.. Very high.. The thought of leaving, giving all of you to another teacher makes me angry, makes me irritated, makes me upset, makes me disappointed, makes me very very very very very unreasonably unhappy... I feel that my effort for all of you are going to be passed on to another teacher, unfair.. I feel that i don't have the support from anyone to be with all of you next year, just because i am new, i am not very experienced, angry... I know i only have your support.. Even though its not good enough to bring me up to P6, it is truely enough to make me feel super happy.. :D
I cannot imagine how i will behaved on wednesday.... last day of school for the year.. last day with all of you... if i really cry again, please dun cry with me, it will make me cry more.. ;p
Starting to miss all of you even though i am now with you,
With lots of love,
Miss Kong
Posted with love at 3:36 PM